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Saturday, August 13, 2005

godsh, with the cruddy final years coming by so fast i'm wondering how im supposed to cram 3 years of work into the head. oh please, let the time fly very slowthankskew.
anyway (_ _ _ _) yesterday was highly entertaining veryvery, hoho!
anyway, gramma's here! this was so entertaining she came bounding into the room asking me if i have the (phunky) song by black eyed peas, and after i start to play it, she gets up and dances around the room. oh oma, you never cease to amaze me.
and so tonight is the night fate can finally be restored. its crazy how you never realise what you have until you dont want to lose it anymore.

now, im wanting this for sure,
i'll beg for nothing more.

saturday's over, goodnightthankewcomeagainpritz!

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7:53 AM
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Monday, July 25, 2005

I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
but I know you did

We always rewind the best part.
9:27 PM
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times square cant shine as bright as you.

i'm ready to face my next disaster,
i got through you.

We always rewind the best part.
2:08 AM
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

i'm mixed of emotions. im supposed to be happy for him, yet it hurts so much.
Seeing my big brother off at the airport today was the basically hardest moment of my life.
and in the midst of standing there hugging him for the last time in a long time, i just broke down. words cant begin to describe how much im going to miss him. Thank you kev, bradi, for being the big brother everyone wants. i will see you soon, and until then please take with you all the love in the world from me. i love you bradi. i'm praying for you.

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8:18 AM
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Monday, July 04, 2005

i dont think its quite sunk in yet, kev's leaving in eight days. i guess all these weeks i've been telling myself its not that near to avoid thinking about it. but inevitably, i know im gonna have to see him enjoy his last days here, and eventually watch him off at the horrid departure hall.

No, it hasnt sunk in. how much im really gonna miss him, irritating or not. I cant really explain it.. he's the best person i've ever known. i mean, where would i be without him.
This year, especially. after i joined the choir, we seem to have gotten alot closer. i practically see him everyday.. and go out as well. i dont know how its gonna be like without him.
no more taxi rides to church with him every sunday, no more jamming with mum while playing the organ/guitar, no more messaging me just to come up to let me hear a nice song, no more someone to call bradi. he's been such a constant fixture in my life that i myself would be lost. he taught me to sing, properly. he taught me how to play the guitar, he taught me to ride a bike, rollerblade. i know he's just going for 5 years.. but 5 years is a long time. im gonna be 21 by the time he comes back again for good.
i dont know why, i feel lost. i know i can, and i'll try my hardest. but im gonna miss him alot.
i guess right now all i can do is pray he'll be happy, and safe wherever he goes.

To my brother is all my prayers and every song i sing.
My last prayer is always for him.

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5:36 AM
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005

what do you do when the one person in the world you could tell everything to, the one person you could have the most fun with, the one person you trust with everything you have, the one person you could actually say you'd keep for life has a big problem,
and she wont talk to you about it.
stop bottling everything up, you know i care.
i thought you could tell me anything?
you know i love you, and i'd kill to see you laugh again,
please i would very much love to stay up all night listening to all you have to say.
pool or no pool, tears or no tears.
dont say you dont know what im talking about, please. you know very well.

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3:41 AM
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

what did i do the day i let you slip into my soul.

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Monday, June 27, 2005

I looked away, Then I look back at you.
You try to say, The things that you can't undo.
If I had my way, I'd never get over you.
Today's the day, I pray that we make it through.
Make it through the fall, Make it through it all.
And I don't wanna fall to pieces.
I just want to sit and stare at you.
I don't want to talk about it.
And I don't want a conversation.
I just want to cry in front of you.
I don't want to talk about it.
Cause I'm in Love With you.
You're the only one, I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone, You bring me back again.
Back under the stars, Back into your arms.
Wanna know who you are, Wanna know where to start.
I wanna know what this means.
Wanna know how you feel, Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything, everything.

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5:42 AM
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